Funky | Fuckery

Sooner Than Later.

2010-06-09T12:25:00.000-07:00

Starting today, I'll be revamping all my sites.....new layouts and all. Maybe then i'll start using them again.

Rebel For A Cause,

Authentik|Supa.Flai

And The Beat Goes On....

2010-05-01T20:45:00.000-07:00

Im use to running from problems and dilemma's but this time...I will not give in. i refuse, i have to do better.

Rebel For A Cause,

Authentik|Supa.Flai

Can't Spell "families" without "lies".

2010-03-17T17:40:00.000-07:00

It pains me to know that family has always been the very first to let me down. For so many years I've been trying to tell myself that some where in the world, maybe even next door, someone has even greater problems than me. But at the end of the night, when I reflect I can't help but to think the many jorneys I go thru during one day are definitly worse than my neighbor. I guess from young I've just been a miserable person. Always hoping to find that little bottle of hapiness and not succeding. Family is supposed to be where the heart is. Though mines is not. I love my family. I really do. But the more and more I continue to get hurt, lied to, taken advantage of, and belittled the more I question the true meaning of family. It hurts when I want to talk simply about my day and there's no one to hear my voice. It hurts to know that I can't go shopping or do mother/father and daughter activites with my parents without if not one, all of us arguing. It hurts that I don't receive support or motivation. It hurts when they use me so that they can get to where they want to be. Family never seems to amaze me. I know families haves their kinks and issues, but so much? I don't think so. If I had it my way, right this second, I'd just pack up and go. Far away. Where no one can reach me, or make me hurt anymore. I'm so sorry Ive been such a burden on so many members of my family lives. Now I think it's time I finally do what's best for me, and figure out this thing called life on my own. Afterall, all the advice and opinions I've been taking from people has gotten me no where but here. Alone and miserable.

Rebel For A Cause,
Authentik|Supa.flai

Reverse, Lets Do It Again.

2010-02-20T13:47:00.000-08:00

The other day I was on the train coming home from school where I was standing across from these kids. All of a sudden I caught myself thinking about my childhood. How fun and free I felt when I had no major priorites. No stress nor worries. The good times. I miss beating the street lights before they came on at night. Playing jump rope with the girls, and watching the guys during summer tournaments. I guess now that my 21st finally came I'm realizing more and more how much of my childhood is so far gone. It's kind of depressing actually. Not kind of, a whole lot of depressing. I wish I could remember more of my childhood but I can't. It comes with old age I guess. Maybe if I could remember it more I wouldn't miss it as much now. But anyway, seeing these kids playing back and forth and picking on each other it really made me miss it. The childhood, innocence and peace. But hey nowadays Theres no more childhood only adulthood. No more innoncence only curiosity. And no more peace only wars. Ohhh adulthood is soo wack. Can I start over?

Rebel For A Cause,
Authentikflai|Supa.Flai

Say Ahh.

2010-02-16T08:06:00.000-08:00

You know what this is...it's a celebration bitches! it's my birthday. :)

No plans
No money
No idea whats going to go down today.

but for some reason that's okay with me....im living..that's all i can ask for.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.flai

We Team Theo Over Here.

2010-02-11T09:16:00.001-08:00

Theophilus London for Complex Magazine...we're doing big things i see Mr.London. I can actually say i'm proud. :) All of my friends are getting their very much prolonged shine. :D. Cant wait to get mines.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Letter In My Notes.

2010-02-07T14:30:00.001-08:00

I really wish I knew what it was that he wanted from me. The constant streams of tears and complaining are really getting on my nerve. I know for a fact though, once you go back and forth with a female it's granted you'll lose her. I only know this for a fact because for some reason deep down inside, I feel like he already lost me. He means the world to me, and I'd do anything for him. I just don't know how many ways to explain that to him. When you find out the one you care most about doesn't trust you...what's your next move? Do you stay in hopes that he'll come around and trust you later? Or do you leave because the trust is already gone? I definitly don't know my next move. Which is why I'm still here...with him dangling on this thin string hoping he pulls me back in before I snap. it pains me to know that I equally hurt him just as much as he has hurt me. Which may be why I'm trying so hard to make it work. But at the end of the day, were both young and selfish. So in all actuality THIS may never really work. But this whole relationship thing wasn't always cracked up to be what movies make em seem. It's meant to hurt and make you laugh all the same time. It's meant to help you grow. And I can honestly say that with him I've grown alot. Love is a powerful feeling and a he'll of emotions. Both things I'm never able to balance out. Maybe this relationship...all relationships just aren't for me. Maybe I AM the problem. Maybe I'm just reading to far into this as per usual. But I highly doubt it. I can't help how I feel about cerrtain situations. I can't help but put my self in dumbass situations. I just want to be able to give my all to someone, someone who's been in need of love they never had or lost. I want to be able to give my love to HIM. Maybe I'm rushing things, maybe I'm the actual reason why he's not happy. I wish I can make him happy and stay that way. I just want to be his companion and best friend. Why does that not seem possible right now, when I've been here so long and given him so much of me? Is that not what he wants from me also? Sometimes, maybe things ARE better left unsaid. Saves all the pain and hurt from hitting the very clear and evident surface. I need to reevalulate my life. Whether I include him or not. Regardless of how I may feel one day out of all the days we share together, I fuckin adore, love and cherish that man with every ounce of me. He's my world, and as I've been saying I'll do anything to make sure he's happy.

Rebel For A Cause,
Authentik|Supa.Flai

You are a cheater, access denied.

2010-02-07T14:15:00.000-08:00

I really wish he doesn't even think ONCE about cheating. I wish the world didn't have to deal with cheaters at all, but we have em. Why can't people just leave a relationship before they go elsewhere? Or why not be in a single person, that way you can do what the fuck you want, when the hell you want. It'll be so easier that way. Cause us "good" and faithful to ours type of people are tired of being hurt because our significant other saw a bigger asset or what have you with someone else. It's pure bullshit. Know why else sucks? Lack of trust in a relationship...yea that never is a good thing. But I digress this entry became entirely too much about me when it wasn't supposed to. I'm gone.

Rebel For A Cause,
Authentik|Supa.Flai

When Your Lost.

2010-01-26T09:19:00.000-08:00

Lately, I've been trying to figure this whole life thing out. So far i've gotten no where. I mean why does everything have to be so damn hard. I've been working so hard for some time and i've seen little or no progress at all. Clearly im doing something wrong, what that is though...i have no idea. School just started for me and already i knoiw its going to be a hell of a quater. My classes this time around are much more demanding. Which means i have to step my game up a thousand. But already...im thinking negative, saying that i'll never get it and i'm not going to do certain assignments. This attitude and energy needs to NOT happen this quater. I WILL make sure i excel this term, and i refuse to fail. But as for everything else in life...im about to be 21 very very soon. Still i have no plans, even a simple idea as to what i should do...and it's driving me insane. I'll be 21, still trying to figure out my life. i'm not even sure if im spending 50G's for the right reasons in the school im in. I wish i had a life coach, better yet a map as to which way to go next for happiness and success. Does that exist anywhere? I started this new year off with a slow start, and not very happy. I guess thats why everything is happening the way it is for now. I just need a good weekend out or in with good company and people who'd understand that i just need an ear. That's all i need, i think. Until then im offically Miserable. Yea miserable indeed.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Haiti

2010-01-19T08:18:00.000-08:00

I've donated a total of 250 dollars since the earthquake tore the land apart. I have no intention what so ever to stop donating. I will continue, even if it's my last. I cant wait to actually get to go there to help. In time i'll be there.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

We The Illest!

2010-01-12T08:08:00.000-08:00

Last night was one of the best times i've had in a long time. A very, very good friend of mines who happens to be THE ILLEST, WordSpit had his "Rise of The Illest" showcase to premire his new single for his video Poet's Haiku. One of my favorite songs by the way. The show featured some awesome acts such as: RSNY, Will, and my new found friends that seem like i knew them forever from Chicago, The Rockerteers. Everyone was amazing, and did an awesome job. Being that i know everyone who performed last night on a personal level and as friends already...seeing them actually perform brought chills down my spine. Especially WordSpit. Even when your having a simple conversation with him, it's always interesting and entertaining. His passion and dedication for what he does is beyond exceptional, and it shines bright. Chillin with him is always fun, but seeing this kid on stage....priceless. Energy the whole time, never a dull moment, and always a crowd attention grabber. If you guys havent checked him out yet...please do so before you miss what we all like to call THE ILLEST. He's really making a big noise this year, i'm just warning yall before yall are taken by surprised. :) . On that note, i'll be back in a few with another entry...let me try to get SOME work done for the day.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

My Favorite Time Of Year.

2009-12-31T08:38:00.000-08:00

So yes, i clearly havent been on here in a while. But i DO have a life outside of blogger, so forgive me. My life as of late has been a whirl wind. Trinidad and i broke up, failed a class or two, got and quit a job, cut my hair, lost friends, gained friends,g gained more haters, semi completed my apartment, kinda sorta found something new. Nonetheless, it's a new year, and i miss writing here on my blog. I really dont care if people actually read what i write. I write for me. It soothes me. I've always been better with words anyway.

December 31st. Which has ALWAYS been my favorite time of year. Theres something about being with friends and family on the eve of a new year that makes me remember how blessed i truly am. This year hasnt been easy for any of us. BUT most of us made it. For those who didnt, well...their watching down on us making sure were all safe. I cant wait to bring in the year tonight. I got my bottles. Yes i said MY bottles. See every year...i bring my own shit. I refuse to run out when everyone else runs out, so i savor my bottles. I aim to be the last fool drunk. Selfish yes, but dont judge me. I like shit to go my way. I have NO idea what im going to wear. Well actually i had an idea, but the money aint there cause i decided to buy my bottles instead of buyin a snazzy outfit. Oh well.

I hope everyone has a blessed, SAFE, and wonderful New Year. Ill be back.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

It's almost a year, tomorrow.

2009-11-12T09:15:00.000-08:00

My lord, it’s been a year since you’ve been gone. I still cant believe it. And i wish you were here, but i know your healthy, safe, and happy where you are now. i love you Verj.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

The Yankeeeeeess win!

2009-11-05T08:46:00.000-08:00

In New York we smoke Phillies.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

I Cant Even Front.

2009-10-15T09:40:00.000-07:00

It's sucks that today is my boyfriend's birthday...
and this happens to be the most depressing, horrific, terrible week…maybe even month for me. And i’m not being over dramatic. How am i supposed to act like i’m happy when i’m feeling so much pain inside?
this just cant be reality.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Happy Birthday King.

2009-10-15T07:06:00.000-07:00

Today is my lovely King's birthday. He doesnt read my blogs...let alone knows i have one. But either way Happy Birthday to you bae. I'm gonna switch the roles tonight in every way possible and hopefully make this Birthday a good one for him. Dinner and a movie, then back home for who knows what.

Happy Birthday Love.

&& all of my lovely Libras! i love you all oh so much!

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

FUCKERY in it's Finest Form.

2009-10-14T08:26:00.001-07:00

Just when you thought you can depend on family & everything was going to be okay....

their the FIRST ones to leave you stranded.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Good Hair.

2009-10-13T07:15:00.000-07:00

So, I went to see the Documentary Good Hair over the weekend with a good friend of mines. And like i imagined, i really enjoyed the film. I found the film very informative and i think Chris Rock answered all the questions people may have had regarding the ever so controversial topic of "good hair". But after reading some reviews today about the film i'm a little upset. As if i made the film lol. According to one source, "Several Black Woman feel belittled after watching the film". Uhmmm okay. YES, Chris Rock targeted Black Woman. It was only right he did since this film was revolved around his 2 daugthers, who at a very early age began to ask why their hair wasnt the same as others around them. It was also only right to solely focus on Black Woman because for some reason hair is such a huge staple in our lives. When i read further into the reviews i became more and more upset because to me...hair is just hair. I never really cared as much about it, as the woman depicted on this film were. I would never spend more than 60 dollars to get my hair done, nor will i ever. Some females in this movie actually spend thousands for a weave. Dont get me wrong...there is nothing wrong with spending it. IF YOU HAVE IT. If you know you have rent to pay, but yet your spending money to get your hair done there is a problem. Even though a lot of females may not actually use their "esstential" money for their hair needs...there's a whole other group of females that would. And i believe that is the sole statement Chris Rock is trying to get across. More than 80% of the minority population spend thousands on hair products and things of that nature a year. You know how many people can send their children to school with that money?!?!. I dont have nothing wrong with woman who have their hair relaxed, and perm their hair. By all means, do you. But me personally, has never relaxed or permed my hair and i find that amazing. I love my natural hair. Im not afraid of the rain, and i'm not afraid to sweat. Im not afraid of people calling me artsy, soul, a sistah, or anything of that sort. Because to me...it's just hair. My hair is my crown and glory and that's that. I'll do anything to take care of it. Though i think saving 1000 dollars a year would help benefit me in the long run. So in my opinion i think this was a very well executed film, bravo to you Chris. I may get alot of negative feed back on this...but hey it's my opinion. And i'm happy to be nappy. :).

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

I Still Hate Mondays.

2009-10-05T11:07:00.000-07:00

Mondays are by far the worse day out of the week. and anyone who disagree's can just fall off the earth. Every Monday i have to come back to work. With tons of work, which isnt an issue until someone feels the need to complain or slow down my pace. I wish i can be blessed with another job, so i can up and jump outta here but until then i shall stay and suck it up like a real woman should. HHAHAHA that's nasty. Til then I HATE FUCKING MONDAYS.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Open Letter About Derrion Albert's Death.

2009-09-29T07:26:00.000-07:00

Dear Young Warriors fighting the wrong wars! Killing each other is definitely played out. Being hurt from the lost of a love one was never cool. Dear Young Warriors fighting the wrong war! I know that feeling , that frustration with life and needing to take it out on someone, any one. But….
We chose the dumbest things to go the hardest for. I remember seeing deaths over 8 ball jackets, fila’s , and name plate chains. Deaths over “he say she say”!!!!! “I’m from This block or I’m from that block”, or “my moms n pops is f*cked up now the whole world gotta pay”!!!
I remember feeling like I was the hardest “n*gga” breathin. And I couldn’t wait to prove it. But let’s think. What r we really proving?? And proving what to who?? Everybody knows Chicago breeds the strongest of the strong but I just feel, me, being ya brother from another state feels your pain as if I grew up with you in ya very own household.
You have the ability and mind power to change they way we are looked at. Look who’s watching us young warriors, look who’s throwin us in jail constantly, look at the ignorance in the world. Look at the racist dogs who love to see us down. Lovin to bury us in the ground or in jail were we continue this worthless war on one another. Young warriors…. We are WASTING more and more time. We gotta get on our jobs and take over the world. Cuz This movie left the theaters years ago, Juice, Menace, boys n the hood , blood n blood out, Belly!
When we see each other why do we see hatred? Why were we born in a storm, born soldiers, WARRIORS….and instead of building each other up we are at war with each other.. May the soul of this young person find peace with the almighty. I’m with you young warriors. You’re me and I’m you. But trust me! you are fighting the wrong war.

-Nas

Late Night Lurking and Early Morning 9 to 5's.

2009-09-24T08:50:00.000-07:00

Yea i havent been here in light years. But thats because i have a life, and because its so nice outside and i have time, i figured i'd type a bit. Sue me if you may. Anyway...my summer quarter at school is finally over this week...i.am.estatic. I can finally stay up all night and sleep during the day. I've been pretty much getting things in order as far as my life goes. Im pretty damn happy with where i am now. I cant recall ever being happier. I'm meeting some of the best people i've ever came across. Really cool people at that. Even though im meeting all these new,wonderful,funkadelic,alky's,artists,ganja smokers,driven and tattoo having people that i've always loved...im still keeping close with my close knit of troops. The ones that i can seem to keep in touch with that is.

Anyway..semi exciting news:

for the first time in a while i went out last night....boy will i NEVER go out like that again on a weekday. With my girls all night, dancing, singing, and etc...we eventually lost track of time and sense. and next thing you know...we were gone. All of us in which had to be at work the next day at 8. I know im not the only one, sneaking bathroom breaks for a quick nap session. Gosh i cant wait til the work and school day today is over..geeezeeeeee.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

YES!

2009-09-04T07:33:00.000-07:00

It's Carnival weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm too hype for words. Mucho plans, Mucho parties, Mucho drinks

and NO SLEEP til tuesday.
!!! :)

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

By Any Means...Cannon.

2009-08-21T08:37:00.000-07:00

Slowly but surely, people are trying to tear me down. Why can’t they just let me be great? That’s all I’m asking of you. I mean can I get me some satisfaction. All I want to do is make art, make love, make music, make fun, make life. Why must I be stopped in the process of completing those things? For the past couple of months, I’ve been consistent on making a name for myself. Making ends meet, and get shit done. Plain and simple. With the help of a few particular people I’ve been doing hella well on this path I’m going. I’m beginning to realize who’s really here for me, and what I do. Rather than the people I thought were my friends in the beginning, who were actually just around to get information out of me and use me for my craft. I came to the conclusion that I need to do what’s best for me now. Its time I do that for myself. So for everyone who has entered my life in the past year or two, thank you for continuing to support me in everything I do. As well as being genuine with me, as I’ve always been with you. As for the others who lied, and manipulated me in more ways than one…shockingly enough I thank you all also. Cause if ya’ll didn’t do me so wrong, I wouldn’t be as strong and powerful as I am now. Because I’m 20, and not 21-25 people almost always underestimate me and how much I can actually do. Which is why when I meet people, I show them what I can do first. The age, there’s no need. I noticed that once I tell people off the back my age, they treat me completely different. Its like an adult telling a child to stay out of grown ups business. Nonetheless, I feel I should be treated as a woman, an adult, a human being. If I have to stand on a rooftop and confess to the world that’s all I want and need, I’d do it. But until then I will draw it on paper, walls, write in on papers, and sites, display it on clothes…by any means necessary. I’m finally comfortable with myself and the person I’ve became to realize I don’t need someone by my side EVERY step of the way. I can make it. With all the negativity that may be around me, I will revert it. The only thing that can come out of it for me is success. I’ma make sure all my people eat well.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Hype Beast!!!

2009-08-17T10:58:00.000-07:00

When i first heard this song two months or so ago, the hook caught me automatically. I grew to love this song beyond measure...and hooked other people onto it as well. Nonetheless this track is hot. But once my baby Fab got on it....complete sex. I mean he's a genius and i dare anyone try to tell me otherwise. So yea i dont know about anyone else but as SOON as i saw this video, it's been on replay. For the past hour at least.

This made my day.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Girls Just Wanna Have Fun.

2009-08-11T09:41:00.000-07:00

Dont

Judge

Me
:)

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Crates of Cheese.

2009-08-06T08:49:00.001-07:00

So yesterday my best friend Nina and i were out in soho, doing some job searching after my terrible day in class. I had a few applications in hand so we stopped of into this deli like, sit in 24 hour place so that i can fill them out. Not too crowded, nor too empty just enough people. The cashier was very nice to Nina and I, and spoke PERFECT ENGLISH [ remember this piece it will come in handy soon]. So we go to sit down at the table, so that Nina can eat. Then suddenly this Mexican guy [ i have no problems with mexicans, but thats what he was ] came out from behind me with these huge crates filled with huge blocks of cheese and meats. Then of course my accident prone ass is the one to get hurt. As he was walking pass us he couldnt exactly hold up crate because it was too heavy and it immediatly fall on me. My head, neck, shoulders, and back. Cheese,crate and all. Now i immediatly felt it because it was a ton of shit that fall on me. I was completly shocked and in pain so i couldnt move but i instantly grabbed my neck and everywhere else shit hit. And this white guy on his cell was "pissed" shall i say. Cause whomever he was talking to on the phone was hearing everything that just happened play by play. Nonetheless the guy who dropped this shit on me didnt say sorry, are you ok? or ma'am can i get you anything. NOTHING at all. He just picked up the cheeses and crate and walked right to his destination. Where he continued to look on saying NOTHING. Now note there's atleast 10 people who were working there. NOONE came to me. Nothing. I sat for a bit, until i can figure out whether i should fuck this place up or call my mom [who's a police officer] . But instead of doing damage i called my mom. She told me to just walk out, we'll go to the hospital when u get home and get a a report to sue or whatever. Okay cool, but i want someone to say sorry. Nina and i walk back to the cashier to ask for the manager now all of a sudden the same english he was speaking to us 10 minutes ago is no longer valid. WTF?!?!?! you mean to tell me now you speak only spanish okay. FINE ill find the manager myself. After giving the cashier a evil grill, and nasty attitude as well as telling everyone who entered the store to not give their business to these people, he finally gets me a "manager". This guy comes to me, says hes not the manager but want to know the problem. I told him AGAIN, and he asked who did it. I pointed and now he speakes spanish to the guy who dropped the shit on me and asked if he did it. This guy says no. ARE YOU SERIOUS? you didnt drop it?!?! so then because they didnt know i understood exactly what they were saying in spanish i responded and said yes it was you and i want an apologie. He hesitated to give me one, but he did. Either way if i was a tourist the whole situation would have went differently, they get crazy. BUT, i am still in pain. And i have my emergency room report. Can you say Jacob and myers?

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

I've Been Gone For Too Long.

2009-08-03T10:37:00.000-07:00

Lately i've been in between worlds. The education, music, and social worlds. And now i can honestly say i can not keep up. I am tired as all hell. Though that may be so, i've been enjoying myself x1000. So i cant really complain. Nonetheless school is still in session, i hate it. Solely because i cant stay out as late as i would like because i have to do projects or wake for class extra early. The work and classes are really enjoyable though. Especially my typography class, i guess me being into graff that class excites me. Music world, hmmph. I'm all over helping tons of new artist, and going to shows. From every spectrum and form of music. And i definetly cant complain about my music world because, it's always been a love for me. Social worlds...where do i began? I'm meeting so many new people who are beyond amazing. I just hope they stick around long enough to see me be great, cause i'll definetly treat them good :) . Life is good, im finally confident in saying i am happy with my life. Even though i have this one constant HATER who is trying to slow me down, i just want her to know THANK YOU for making me realize how truly blessed i am. I wouldnt be here without you darling.

But anyway, i have been away for too long for those reasons up above. But have no fear! my long drawn out boring posts will now continue on to regular scheldued programming :)

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Real Housewives of Atlanta.

2009-07-31T07:12:00.000-07:00

Please tell me someone else in the world watched this episode with me. Cause i was definetly in tears.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Fuck Summer.

2009-07-23T08:22:00.000-07:00

I wish it would rain for the rest of the summer. So that i know i’ll be safe enough to walk down the street without getting shot. I wish it would be grey for the rest of the summer, so that i wouldnt have to deal with hearing another friend of mines was gunned down. I wish people had more sense. I wish the summer’s were’nt so fucken terrible. What ever happened to the good summers.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Wednesday Is A Long Day.

2009-07-15T07:19:00.000-07:00

Today is Wednesday, one of my favorite days out of the week because it assures me the weekend is close. Plus it assures me that tomorrow i go to see Mr.Obama in jersey thanks to my sister. But either way, im at work, and dreding every fucking moment of it. Not because of the work load or anything of that sort but because im sooo sleepy. I cant keep my eyes open for longer than, what, ten minutes and it's insane!. And seeing how i have class at 1:15 doesnt help the situation. I guess now that school in back in works, the load from that alone is making me restless. I'll be fine though. Everything is cool in my world. Minus the fact that i wanna go to the beach ultra badly, and get sunkissed. But the weather definetly is'nt hot enough for me to even attempt that. So no cigar. Hopefully everyone is enjoying their summer. Cause i know for me this is by far the best one i've had. All my friends are with me, and we are taking over so that's always good :)

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Afro-Punk The END.

2009-07-13T12:17:00.000-07:00

This past week and weekend, has been awesome. Mainly because of Afro- Punk...it gave me the oppurtunity to meet up with alot of old faces and loves. I had a fucken ball. The block party, which was the closure of the whole event wasnt that great...but we still managed to make the most of it. Good times indeed. Yesterday was my anniversary to Trinidad...we had tons of fun, but that may be become after we had dinner at our favorite resturant Red Bamboo, i was 85% intoxicated. Thanks to whispering to my waiter " let me get the peach iced tea" wink wink lol. Nonetheless i finished this weekend with a bang! Too bad school started today....fuck i didnt even start my summer yet. Fuck me sideways.

Potential x Authentik x Nina x Kell Bellz

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Born Day.

2009-07-10T06:45:00.001-07:00

Happy birthday my sweet good friend of mines. :)

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

You Say.

2009-07-09T18:18:00.000-07:00

I havent been here, because i've currently been on

yousaysshes-flai.tumblr.com

:)

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Memories on Film.

2009-07-06T21:26:00.000-07:00

Here's a few pictures from here and there, from this weekends good times. Im od tired, so ima just load em up and digress. Enjoy :) .

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

P.S. I steal all my pics from Nina! :) Also, almost all my pics...i make faces, sue me.

Let The Good Times Roll.

2009-07-06T07:31:00.000-07:00

Here's some of the work some artists did at Afro-Punk. Some of my biggest inspirations had pieces here and i was greatful enough that i meet them. Especially my biggest idol and one of the sickest in the game ( i think ) TooFly..:) I was sooo happy that she was there this year to do a piece. It took me a whole day to actually walk up to her and tell her how much of an inspiration she is to me. She even invited me to a show so she can see my work. :) Im mucho excited. I also met my all time fav Rob Focused. Ahhh these Afro-Punk festivals always make me feel like im in heaven.

Pics Courtesy of TooFly :)

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Drinks, Shows, && Friends.

2009-07-06T07:23:00.001-07:00

My Fourth of July weekend, has turned out to be the best time i've had in a long time. I've prolly been all over New York in the span on 3 days, and meet some amazing people. Some in which, i find to be a huge inspiration to me. All in all i was happy as i could be. I was surrounded by people i love to be around, and we all enjoyed ourselves. I've been to Afro-Punk all weekend and as always its good. Im leaving work at 3 today just so i can make it to Afro-Punk in time for Janelle Monae and Elevator fight...maybe i should leave at 2. Hmmm i refuse to miss her. I go hard for some Monae. Nonetheless, pictures will tell much more than my words at this moment. So once i post em...you shall see.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Hype Beast!!!

2009-07-02T07:08:00.000-07:00

Everyone knows i love to be where the fun is. And its about time for my favorite part of the year. Fourth of July! i absolutly love this holiday for more than one reason. And granted this holiday weekend i have a whole lot of shit that i planned. Hopefully everything works according to plan. But anyway the absolute highlight of it all will be the Afro-Punk festival. I go every year since its right across the street from my house, and the art and music drives me there every time. But this year may be the best to date. They have soo many new artist ive been dyin to see live and i cant wait. i would go into details about the artists but im beyond backed up at work so that aint happening, you guys can look up the awesomeness at http://www.afro-punk.com/. I think by far the music is always on point so thats always good. Plus the Dj they usually have, DJ Prince...is great. He knows his shit, and he knows how to get a crowd going. I've been to a few events he played at and i cant complain at all. Plus he a honeyy. But anyway i'll post more when i get home. Til then to tumblr i go.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Hype Beast!!!

2009-06-30T10:37:00.000-07:00

YESSS!!!!!

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Tumblr Is A Go.

2009-06-30T10:27:00.001-07:00

Follow me, and do what you do:

http://yousayshes-flai.tumblr.com/

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AuthentikSupa.Flai

Tribute To The O'Jays.

2009-06-29T08:48:00.000-07:00

Look at that sexiness of a man, known as Trey Songz.

Yum!

Their performance for the O'Jays was really nice and i loved it.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Im Not Late.

2009-06-29T08:36:00.000-07:00

I just dont want to accept it yet. I remember his concert that was broadcasted on HBO, when i was like 9 or something. And i sat in my mom's living room under the table and cried,smiled,and screamed throughout the whole show. Because, hey everyone else on t.v was doing it. But as i grew up i grew to love him more. Impersonating him and having relatives video tape the fuckery, which we still have, priceless. Nonetheless, im still at a lost of words and my heart goes out to the family.

The highlight of the always terrible BET Awards for me was when Janet came out. Not only is she my inspiration in more ways than one, but she showed alot of courage by stepping out so soon. Im also happy she wore all white, rather than black.

R.I.P Micheal Jackson

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Save Me The Bullshit.

2009-06-24T06:48:00.000-07:00

Someone PLEASE tell me how the fuck i get an F in my Computer Application class?..PLEASE tell me. I only missed 2 classes out of the 4 allowed, i gave in my work, and i tried my ultimate BEST. At one point i think i've done more in this class than my others, just to make sure i passed. I've been so anxious all week to see my grades, excited because i was so sure i did well and would be on the Dean's List. But nope. I looked on my screen to see :

Studies: A
Drawing and Perspective: B
Fundamentals of Design: B
Image Manipulation: B+
Computer Applications: F!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT THE FUCK. i feel so stupid, how in godsmiddysam does a person fail a computer class?. Especially when their literally on a computer all day? It makes no sense what so ever to me. Not one. I cant explain how fucked up and sour my day has now become. I dont even wanna go back, i feel like giving up now. I worked so hard, and it feels like i was knocked down to the size of an ant. FML.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Work!.

2009-06-23T12:13:00.000-07:00

If this isnt me all the way.

i dont know what is. :)

thanks ybf.

This is now my new wallpaper at work.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Tmblr?.

2009-06-23T11:08:00.001-07:00

I want. One.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Be Without You.

2009-06-23T11:04:00.000-07:00

I never liked this song when it came out, but now...i think i appreciate it alot more.

Rebel For A Cause,
Authentik|Supa.Flai

Dont Judge Me.

2009-06-22T08:07:00.000-07:00

I can use some Maui Wowie.
Please and thank you.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

WTF Hype Beast!!!

2009-06-22T07:59:00.000-07:00

I definetly cant believe how stupid and forgetful i was for forgeting this was coming up!. That just goes to show how distant and lost ive been in the past few weeks. FML.But none the less, ill be there of course at 9 a.m dont judge me...im getting my damn stage spot. Fuck everyone else, niggas know how i feel about Cudders. So please everyone come out, enjoy im sure it'll be bananas. Nana...i think you should come out, bring some sunshine to ya day maybe?

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Cudder.

2009-06-19T08:27:00.000-07:00

Im going back to Honolulu just to get that, that Maui Wowie. That Maui Wowie :)

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Feeling Good.

2009-06-19T08:12:00.000-07:00

So my quarter at school, is finally over!. And shockingly enough i think i did great!. I mean this whole quater i made it my business to strive and do well in my classes, do the best work, and ask the most questions. I think i nailed it. I cant wait until i see my grades. I already see it....deans list. HOPEFULLY. Im so proud of myself. Even if my grades arent A's i know i tried, and worked hard so thats all that matters to me. I actually have one more class left, and thats tomorrow. All we have to do is hand in our ten projects and give in our final project..all in which needs to be in a portfolio. Speaking of which, i cant find mines anywhere. Fuckery. But anyway thru all the rain this week, it's been a hell of a good one for me and hopefully the weekend shall be the same. Me and the bestie Nina plan on running things :).

I just had to put her on here...she looks fab. :)

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Funky Fresh.

2009-06-17T08:48:00.000-07:00

Yes, so more uminportant bloggin.

Because he's gorgeous.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Funky Fresh.

2009-06-16T09:30:00.000-07:00

Ms.Milli is still and will always be my favorite. Tho she bleached her hair

and it took some time for me to adjust. I still love her. Maybe more so.

She is Tennille Stoute, born and raised in Barbados.

She is gorgeous indeed.

and my new fav!

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Use Somebody.

2009-06-09T09:29:00.001-07:00

i LOVE this song too by king of leon, beyond measure. It hits home, every single time. Im here at work playing this and Corneille song over and over. :) it's a good day.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Back To Life.

2009-06-09T08:37:00.000-07:00

I've been singing this song for almost 4 months now. I love Corneille, his voice is so soothing to me. And i cant wait to go and buy his cd. Until then i doubt ill grow tired of this song.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Rainbows In The Rain.

2009-06-09T07:57:00.000-07:00

love.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

A Beat Off My Usual Melody.

2009-06-08T09:20:00.000-07:00

I will live to strive and do better. I will be happy and Healthy. I will accomplish all that and more with the will of GOD. He will see me thru and make this path easier for me. I can only go up from this hollow pit im in. I refuse to go backwards or be set back for any moment of time. This is my life and im ready to take charge. I am blessed and highly favored. Yes, yes.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Friday Fuckery.

2009-06-05T10:34:00.001-07:00

Bringing it on back cause i need to vent. For a moment. Please and thank you.

1. Why is it that all the people i label as "friends" shit on me. Continually.?

2. Why does my professor for 9 weeks, still not know my name. Why has he been marking me absent, when im always there to say present?

3. I love the rain, and i hate the fact that next week may be sunny.

4. If one more person asks me if my hair is real or asks to touch it i will scream and maybe act out and end up on channel 5. This is not a petting zoo.

5. Im starting to love my job.

6. I love the colors and designs i put on my nails, dont. and i repeat DONT judge me for it. Yes i know im weird, but only i can title myself that.

7. I will cut you off, i promise, starting today. I tried to make this work, but i cant nemore. I need to figure out what im doing and because your not helping speed up the process i'd like to do it alone. I hope you understand. And yes this IS about YOU so dont call or text me asking if it is. Because i already deleted every number, and thing that links me to you. Cause like i said i need time to get over us. Whatever that is. :-D. Respect my wishes please.

8. Dont you hate when you try to get over someone, and deleted their numbers. But you already memorized the number. So deleting it really doesnt accomplish much? FUCKery.

9. I HATE to see people wearing shades in the train, bus, or indoors. There is no sun. As well as the people who wear them in the rain, cloudy ass days. Get over yourselves PLEASE. I'd understand if you spent hundreds on them, maybe. But 10 dollars? no cigar.

10. This summer i will be a household name. Yes...work!

11. You'll never find another like me. Promise.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

P.S. My lil cousin and lil sis looked gorgeous for their prom day last night :) im so proud.

The Jelly to My.

2009-06-03T07:13:00.000-07:00

Peanut butter Sandwhich.

work!

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

La Bonita Bandera.

2009-06-02T13:33:00.000-07:00

I love my heritage. And this one particular weekend is when i let loose.

:) i cant fucken wait. Im so excited because this year

im amongst 10 other girls to be Miss PRRP for 2009.

I really sincerly hope i get the oppurtunity to win.

But Pageants are evil nowadays. Plus my spanish isnt fluent so that may

just be what disqualifies me. :( All in all, im determined to have a good time

and i hope i get far in the pageant so that i can make my dad and family

proud :-D.

I cant fucken wait!.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Beautiful.

2009-06-02T09:15:00.000-07:00

Yay! my beautiful best friend has not one but two job interviews!. And im so proud of her, she's been waiting patiently, and God seen her thru. :) Woot woot i hope she takes Banana, they are awesome!..

But anyway im sitting here at work, bored of course. BUT it is a beautiful day. I look good and i feel beautiful. So being bored for the next 4 hours is'nt gonna slow me down. :) . Last night i was probably on the phone for about 4 hours damn near breaking day with someone who got lost in translation. It amazing how once you take someone out of your life someone else reenters. Potential should know who that is. I havent seen or spoken to this dude in months, almost a year. But last night's conversation with him was as if nothing ever happened. If anything it seemed like he just went on vacation and was gone for a few days. Though i wish our relationship didnt end the way it did, it happened. So the past is the past. And that's that. Let the good times roll. Hopefully now that i forgive him because of all his dumb choices we can have a friendship again. We were attached to the hip at one point. So it'd be cool to get back to that point again where we went and did alot together. It'd be even better if i can get him to come to some events i have coming up. :) Im so excited for this summer. Minus the heat of course. Eh.

I also get to see Trinidad today for a bit. I hope he cooked, or has food cause as always im hungry. In the mean time though, on my lunch hour ima go to the park across the street. Put my music on and fall asleep. Hobo style. And i dont care who see's. Thanks to 'ol boy last night i got very little sleep. The sun is beaming right about now so ill be able to sleep in the shade. :) then once my loud ass alarm rings ill walk back to work fully energized. SIKE.

So yea, Nina girl im SOOOOOOOOOOO proud of you. You derserve it, and yes i get discounts! i hope you know Banana gives 10-25% discounts for family members. I may not be blood but im close enough :) .

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Hype Beast!!!

2009-06-01T08:05:00.000-07:00

Did anyone see the sneak peek trailor for New Moon?!?!?!
I CANT FUCKIN WAIT! it's gonna be soooo cool, i can feel it. Thats the nerd in me, and i dont care. I tivoed the MTV Awards last night so i played that part alone at least 20 times. As well as the Eminem fuckery. But yea New Moon i cant wait to see it in november :) . Team Jacob!

Btw...Jeremih, oh Jeremih say you'll be mines. He's a looker.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

P.S. Damn is it really June?...Already?

Story of My Life.

2009-05-29T09:33:00.000-07:00

These Post Secrets always make me remember.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

I Wish.

2009-05-29T08:19:00.001-07:00

I knew her. Just because she's something awesome. And people are haters :).

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Dont Speak.

2009-05-27T08:08:00.000-07:00

I think this week was full of fuck ups for me. Like i cant win.

My best friend semi hates my guts, though she wont admit it...i know she's really mad. But i hope she realizes nothing was intentional, i was just trying to make sure she had a smashing good time.

My projects for my Image Manipulation class have been deleted from the school server, and i dont have save copies of my own. Which means i have to do all 3 projects over. FUCKERY.

My asthma and back has been kicking my ass, constantly every fucking hour of the day.

I still hate my phone.

My "friends" are disappearing, and i dont know whether thats a good thing or not as of yet.

I thought he was gone, but i let him back in. Ugh...dumbass sista syndrome.

My quater of school is almost done, but i still have tons of work to complete :( .

I cant win.

I need and want a l. ASAP. Just once. Please?

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Hype Beast!!!

2009-05-26T12:23:00.000-07:00

Need i say more?!?!

I think not.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Hold My Hand && Dont Let Go.

2009-05-26T10:42:00.000-07:00

I came to the conclusion that maybe, just maybe im becoming H U G E . Not like..oh shit my thighs are spreading but huge like oh shit my thighs, waist and backside is spreading. Lol weird. But nonetheless i dont like it. I've def been eating alot more, solely because of boredom. I mean what else is there to do? Anyway, im gonna start my workout regime again with tons of running and muscle training. Summer is practically here and i havent worked out at all to prepare :( .

In more exciting news. Well to me that is. Once my hair goes back to its curly kink state, im going to leave it at just that. Keep it natural for another month and hopefully keep it up thru out the summer. Before i do it though i will be cutting it a bit. I cant wait to start this again and see how long ill go without putting heat on it. Heat on hair is no bueno ladies and gents!. I also noticed that not only do i love my hair natural but my guy loves it. So if im happy so is he...and AfroRican we shall be.

In more exciting news to maybe a few of you...im restarting my portraits for my showcase. Which means there is still no date. I wanted to re do all my paintings, stencils, and canvas' because what i have already done just didnt seem appealing to me. Therefore if they arent appealing to me, they damn sure wont be appealing to the people who actually come to see the exhibit. So once i get everything together and finialized ill let you guys know.

Although today is a gloomy day in manhattan and brooklyn, its my favorite. And today Trinidad brought me to work, so im still on cloud 9. Cause lord knows he never brings me to work, its just not his steelo. Hopefully now that he made this step after 2 yrs, i can get flowers every thursday. Maybe thats pushing it tho. Either way i am as happy as can be. Temporarily that is. He is my motivation :).

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Soho Room at 1:20 a.m.

2009-05-24T10:00:00.000-07:00

I swear all we do is go out to eat. But i love my ladies.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Fuckery.

2009-05-22T13:46:00.000-07:00

lmfaoo Im still laughing at this shit, cause im still tryna warm up to charles lol. hahahaha she was tite, and she rocked his shit. damn, it was just a rhyme tho. i prolly would have done the same..:(

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Straight Hair, Gladiators, && Mustard.

2009-05-22T08:22:00.000-07:00

So it's the kick off of Memorial Day weekend. Woop! One of my favorite times of the year. The weather is decent, and events are occurring in every corner of every neighborhood. Just the way i like it. I've been extremly busy as of late. Working on my pieces for my soon to come exhibit. As well as bustin my ass in class and work..then having to juggle my, what seems to be non exsisting social life in the other hand. Which has been kind of easy for the past week thank goshness.

Straight Hair...ugh. My hair is straight at the moment, thanks to the dominican salon. I've been rocking au natural for the past month, solely because i hate putting heat on my hair. And i think natural is a better look on me, rather than my straight long hair which can be hot as hell to maintain in the heat thats coming. But i gave in, my ends needed to be clipped and i needed a hot oil treatment. That i could have all done myself but i was LAZY. :( oh well. Atleast i lasted a month.

I hate the fact that i have to dress in business attire for my job. It makes me feel so damn grown. :( Today i was just tired of the whole " what slacks and shoes should i wear today?" so i decided to just do brown slack and gladiator sandels :-/ . I must say im rather comfortable. Though i still cant wait to get home and jump into jeans and some sneakers....oh and a wife beater cause it's blazing outside today.

Mustard just cause it's the color of my shirt today :)...

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Ridin Round The City.

2009-05-21T19:14:00.000-07:00

"Put out the roach, light a brand new l, fuck you bitch im actin brand new"

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Weird.

2009-05-19T10:50:00.001-07:00

"MY DEFINITION OF WEIRD:
ANYBODY WHO IS A LEADER AND FOLLOWS THEIR HEART"

Yes yes.

&& dag nabbit it's beautiful outside, what a wonderful day.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Lets Get Skully.

2009-05-15T12:31:00.001-07:00

My drawing and perspective class has a midterm assignment due next week. Our assignment is to draw skulls. Two different ones at that. Both different angles. This is one skull i completed. But i cant seem to get the second skull frame the way i want. :( im my biggest critic.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Fuckery At It's Finest.

2009-05-13T08:36:00.000-07:00

It's just wrong that, when your 17...you cant wait to be 18. You think you'd be able to do whatever you want. WRONG. You cant do whatever you want, you cant buy drinks legally, you cant go to certain clubs, you cant go to concerts and shows, you cant go to events. THIS SHIT IS BLOWING MINES. Then when you hit 18, you wish you were 20. So that those things you thought could happen once you hit 18 can happen. WRONG, yet again. So suddenly your 20. In between, and still not able to do shit. What the fuck?. All i want is to be able to go out. Im not immature, i know where i should and shouldnt be. I know not to continue drinking if i see a bouncer or club crew member when i dont have a "21 and over" wrist band. I know not to make it known to the world my under age status. I know not to pass out because some "over exposed" celebrity touched my hand or looked my way. No i will not do those things i have sense. So why the fuck cant people like me go to concerts/events, clubs, etc without being told no because of our age. Im sure, Vaughn Anthony and Drake know they have fans of all ages. Yes im pretty darn sure. Im also sure that they wouldnt mind if my measly 20 buckaroos is spent to buy a ticket for their show. Yes im pretty darn sure. Im sure the venues wouldnt mind either that im paying MY money to get in either. Im also sure that it's just a show. Im also also sure that the age limit to these events should atleast be 19 or 20 and up. And im pretty darn sure that i prolly have more knownledge, and know more of these artists work than half the damn 21 year olds allowed to go. IM SURE. I mean damn. This is so not cool. It's even worse that im sitting here at work furious because of my "problematic" age. Pshhh i swear, once i turn 21....not a soul will be able to catch me. Not a soul. And you know why? Because im 21. And ill be able to drink, and go to events and venus. And ill be able to say " oh my i.d? you wanna see it? of courseeeeeeeee im 21, fuck you mean i look 20?" Someone please enlighten me on how and why i can buy ciggs at 18 but not alchol. Or how i can go to clubs that are bound to be shot up at 18. Or how i can go to events that never seem to be well organized or on time at 18. Why cant their be an exception for me. Fuck everyone else. Im a mature 20 year old who has dreams and goals, and because of this 21 year old stop i have, i cant accomplish shit. This just aint fair. I digress, for now.

Rebel For A Cause,
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I've Been.

2009-05-11T10:17:00.000-07:00

Gone for a minute now im back, sorta. I havent been blogging, texting, calling, writing, emailing, Iming, speaking to much of anyone lately. My social life has pretty much been put on pause since school started. With projects and assignments left to right, i've been overwhelmed. But nonetheless im doing rather well in all my classes. As for my social life, im losing that slowly but surely. BUT as i told some friends already, if you are truly a friend you understand that school comes first :) , and play comes after. So yea, i miss my social life. I miss my friends indeed, i mean why wouldnt i. I met some new ones who seem like they'll be here for the long run. its awesome. Once i get time to blink my big brown eyes, i shall return. :) not that im missed or anything.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Cold.

2009-05-06T08:10:00.000-07:00

Im A COLD, COLD, bitch now. Solely because of you.
thanks!

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Ima Need.

2009-05-06T08:02:00.000-07:00

HER to stay away...and i mean far away from My John.

A.S.A.P

Please and thank you.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Fuck You Allergies.

2009-05-04T12:05:00.000-07:00

I hate having allergies. I cant win, im always

sneezing
coughing
gagging
scratching
growling
bitching

yep yep that sums it up.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Fresh Selector Reality Checks.

2009-05-01T10:10:00.000-07:00

“Herb is the healing of a nation, alcohol is the destruction.”

-- Bob Marley

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikFlai

Green, Yellow, && Red.

2009-05-01T09:51:00.001-07:00

<3.

The man who has started me on my way.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

I Constantly.

2009-04-30T19:49:00.000-07:00

Reply this video, and laugh....cause to this day...its priceless. :)

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AuthentikSupa.Flai

Asleep In The Bread Aisle.

2009-04-30T11:45:00.000-07:00

So i think i'm offically a fan. I didnt think i'd be one. But i watched this video on mute first. And the art direction is amazing, and i was blown away by the simplicity. Therefore i played it with sound...and cee-lo's voice made me love the track even more. Asher....you are now my current fave....sorry i've neglected you for so long :)

and another beautifully done video, and song....love.

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I Digress.

2009-04-29T18:27:00.000-07:00

Im ending this bullshit friendship. Im seriously done. Def done. Im starting new ones. Without you included.

Anyway, i cant wait to get shit started. Cause you've slowed me down quite frankly.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Pollen, Pills, && Seeing Red.

2009-04-29T09:35:00.000-07:00

I am offically going insane.
Thanks to my damn allergies.
If i had my phone near me i'd post a picture of my swollen eyes,
as well as red eyes, and
hives that are now forming.

thanks spring.
thanks alot.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Executive Decision.

2009-04-28T13:43:00.000-07:00

Someone has given me the oppurtunity to showcase my artwork in his gallery, my executive decision...YES SIR!

so yea, ill keep you guys updated with that info. As for now im leaving work to figure out exactly what pieces i want to showcase, and some possible new things. :)

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Yum Deli- Ossshus.

2009-04-28T10:58:00.001-07:00

Yes, yes!

he's back :)

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Fuckery.

2009-04-28T08:06:00.000-07:00

Chrisette Michele's show is tonight...
guess who's not going?

:(

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Hype Beast.

2009-04-24T10:47:00.000-07:00

Friend[s] or not, im going!

Rebel For A Cause,
Authentik|Supa.Flai

Things I Need In My Life ASAP.

2009-04-24T08:07:00.001-07:00

Those pants ms. milli....i love. M.I.A's whole line is quite appealing to me.

I got a few shirts...but these pants, i must!

These Louie shoes are the biznesss!

i'd never spend that much on them, lets look for imitations please.

This jacket...love,

ima get it made...like i od love it lol :)

This dress just because she made it look like an everyday outfit lol.I LOVE my chocolate man Idris....so i mean come on, can i have him PLEASE!?!?!

and Columbus...pssh there's just no words.

Rebel For A Cause,
Authentik|Supa.Flai

Yes, Yes.

2009-04-22T07:51:00.000-07:00

Im making today, a good day. Rain and all. Fuck yes!

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

P.S. "We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?' Actually, who are you not to be? "---N. Mandela

Words of wisdom that's getting me through my day.

What A Fuckery of a Day.

2009-04-19T20:06:00.000-07:00

Today may have been one of the worst days i've had in a while. My dad is still in the hospital, and so i decided to actually go and see him. Though in doing so i didnt realize it would hurt so much. Im use to seeing him in the hospital, but this time was so much worse. Seeing him physically unable to do the most simpliest things struck me hard. He couldnt even turn his head to look at me, let alone touch my hand. Never in a thousand years have i ever imagined seeing my father this ill. So being that i couldnt bare to see him that way i left, and waited for my sister so that we can leave.

Even though i thought my day was going to be sad, and full of disappointment and worry for the remainder of the evening. I went to check out measurements for my new apartment. Yes MY apartment. I accomplished my goal of having my own place at 20. And i can proudly say i am offically a bed stuy chick. I've been claiming it for yrs now anyway. So yea, i did some measurements so that i can make sure all my ish can fit. And now i cant wait to move in, the excitement is boiling in me. I cant wait to have my housewarming! So of course my spirits were lifted, and soon after my day began to look up.

As soon as i thought it was getting better, as my sister and i was walking down the block to the train, she looks over and see's this huge memorial on the corner. And immediatly says " amanda isnt that chad? " As soon as she said that, i was scared to look over. But i did, and damn sure it was a memorial for Chad. I swear my knees buckled and i burst into tears all over again, just as bad as when i cried earlier in the day. The memorial was covered in red and lime green flags, flowers, pictures and letters from loved ones. And still at that very moment i couldnt believe it was him, who's gone from our presence. As soon as i was able to contain myself, as everyone walked by watching my cry and ask if i was okay or needed anything, i took out my Krink marker, and wrote my piece to him. What's killing me the most, is that he got shot at the corner of the block im soon going to be calling home. Everyday i am going to have to see this memorial knowing that he was here, walking my block, walking to the chinese resturant, where his life was ended. I dont know how im going to deal. Its such a small small world.

In other news, i attempted to do my projects for my classes. My current status...no success. Lol i couldnt do it, my mind was all over the place all day. I think out of everyone who called me today i gave 4 out of 5 attitudes. Not that i wanted to but because im trying to deal. I mean minus maybe one or two people. But yea. They gave me reasons. Im a grudge holder though i shouldnt be, maybe ill get over it but for now...im not going to drop it. Simply because im hurt, and its a hole that cant be filled.

As for tomorrow...to work i go, sadly. :-/
Oh and why the fuck did i give in to fucken twitter? wtf is a twitter anyway?

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

It's As If.

2009-04-18T07:14:00.001-07:00

Things are getting so much worse. I dont know why exactly, but when the weather gets warm people just lose all their right minds. For the guys nowadays, it has to be the absolutly worse. I mean, just for being aquainted with a particular crowd, or looking at someone just a tad bit different, causes a huge problem amongst themselves. It's amazing how i just finished telling my Best friend down in SC that Brooklyn is really getting ridiculous. In terms of violence. She didnt really believe me, until i told her a situation that hit home with my boyfriend and his people. But now not only did it hit home closly for me. But on more than one occassion in less than a month. Niggas refuse to fight with their hands anymore. They run to a gun to end lives and shit. Something far worse. Im just tired of walking the streets thinking something is going to happen to me. Not only me, but Trinidad, or any other loved ones of mines. Its crazy and highly scary. Im just tired, restless, overwhelmed and worried. Nonetheless, this very same situation happened to a very good friend of mines, because i've been crying all night i rather not get into detail about what this kid meant to me. But as long as he knows, im good.

R.I.P

Chad Wilkins

my handsome, young, talented

friend.

Peace King.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

If I Were A Boy.

2009-04-17T09:16:00.001-07:00

I've always loved you. Since Girlfight, it's because of you i became a figther.

tho i gave it up...it was fun to think i was the boss.

Because of you i love saying im proud to be a Boricua :)

woot woot for Michelle Rodriguez

My love.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Brooklynite I Am.

2009-04-16T18:27:00.000-07:00

&& with that im making some serious decisions, and making some serious moves.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

I Think.

2009-04-15T10:39:00.001-07:00

and

look alike...someway somehow.

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

And So Last Night.

2009-04-15T08:42:00.000-07:00

Was amazingly fun and interesting indeed.
Until i realized i was stranded.
In the middle of fucking no where.
With no way to get home.
At 3 a.m.
Until suddenly...
...TA-DA!
Potential saves the day!
and whisks me away and in no time im home to
B R O O K L Y N!
I always knew i loved brooklyn, but i didnt know to what extent
until, i guess, i was stranded.
In a what seemed to be a different universe....
...Different galaxy, in which i couldnt hop, or skip home. :)
4:53 a.m home sweet home to a raging mother.
9:00 a.m fucking work.

fuck.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

I Steal His Pictures.

2009-04-15T08:35:00.000-07:00

Simply because a picture can say a thousand words. And when his pictures are taken they always seem to do so, and make me feel as if im there with him. Enjoying the moment and creativity of a beautiful mind. Travie you are totally boss, and the cheese to my macoroni :).

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Oral Fixation.

2009-04-14T09:27:00.001-07:00

If you havent tried these...

they're totally boss.

&& you should get a taste of em asap.

If your from the islands more than likely

you already know the heaven these things hold.

yum deli oooshush!

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Sloopy Buns, Thick Roots, && Secruity.

2009-04-14T09:01:00.000-07:00

While im here at work, almost often i find myself with little to do. Which gives me time to sit here, and blog my life away. Until of course someone comes barging in my office. So anyway. I havent went to the dominican mami's to get my hair done in almost a month :( . I've been rocking it au natural for the past couple of weeks. Washing it and wearing it as it falls. My hair still smells like coconut, YUM! which is prolly why i still didnt make my trip to the salon. Either way, i hate when i go cause they always complain about my hair. Plus the fact that it always takes 4 hours to finish, not including the wait period. Right now tho, my hair is at the point where i cant exactly run my fingers thru my au natural "hispanic" curls. Nonetheless i love my hair, so fuck the side eyes in the streets and work place :).

Secruity, Well, Trinidad is home. And i cant remember when i've ever been happier. Im happy he's home, safe, and able to hold me and make me laugh. In much more interesting news. Or atleast i think its more interesting. In my Image Manipulation class last night, we had to fill in/color and tighten up a image of the character named Goku from Dragon Ball Z. Being that i never really used Photoshop, this class is more than exicting for me. So overall my Goku came out rather snazzy for a newbie. Techincally im not a newbie though, seeing how i used similiar products to Photoshop. But yea ima semi-newbie. Shit is awesome! Ill post the final product once i take it out of the Photoshop file.

On the randomness, i've been drinking two bottles of water a day. Im getting there :(. Water can be so unsavory. But i shall stop typing for now, but in like 5 minutes ill blog again on some random but substantial type shit.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

P.S. Yes i do write about you in my blogs, yes yes feel important.

I Am.

2009-04-13T08:27:00.000-07:00

Going to loose my mind if i dont see/hear from Trinidad in the next couple of hours.

I SWEAR.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai

Wtf?.

2009-04-11T07:59:00.000-07:00

No, no, no...im so tired of these celebrities, Fab couldnt have said it better...what the hell.. i mean i guess i'll let her past because she's a beautiful face........but WTF. Diddy will prolly never be seen with her again, im just sayin. lol. Only one person can do this and get away with it...and that was/is KESH, not you Cassie. Somebody needs to kick her ass for this. I digress.

Ugh fuckery so early in the a.m

Rebel For A Cause,

AuthentikSupa.Flai

Sorry For Your Feelings.

2009-04-10T09:07:00.000-07:00

Im sorry i cant be perfect.
Im sorry i dont pick up, or respond.
Im sorry i dont call or text you like i use to.
Im sorry i cant be drop dead gorgeous, 24/7.
Im sorry i am a brooklyn girl, with a blunt mind.
Im sorry i cant be the fire to your flame.
Im sorry i cant make you smile anymore.
Im sorry i cant give you goosebumps when you hear my name.
Im sorry i am cold and bitter.
Im sorry i am in between a rock and a hard place.
Im sorry i cant be your friend.
Im sorry i sometimes hate the gap in btw my teeth so i shy away from speaking face to face.
Im sorry i am not a video vixen, though sometimes i'd like to be.
Im sorry i will not be a groupie.
Im sorry i fell too hard, so quickly.
Im sorry i just cant win...ever.

Im not sorry that i met you.

Rebel For A Cause,
AuthentikSupa.Flai